Late last year in 2018 I was walking in faith, with a word I believed I received from God. That was to pick up my mat and walk. After pressing into God I stopped taking a medication that the doctors used on me to treat seizures for 17 years. Then this year I had an incident in the car that was unexpected. I was driving the car on my way somewhere when I lost consciousness. Instead of hitting oncoming traffic or running into something, I pulled into a parking lot, got out of my car, laid down on the curb and had a seizure. The only explanation for this grace is that I had angels surrounding me that orchestrated this. That morning I recall having asked the Lord to surround me with angels.

If anyone hesitates to trust God while walking in faith I think there’s a truth you need to get ahold of. God is GOD. If we’re really in an intimate relationship with Him we will hear His voice and discern truth in our lives from what is false. We will know what to pray for and be prepared when the enemy comes at us. The Bible says,

…Be careful what you are hearing. The measure [of thought and study] you give [to the truth you hear] will be the measure [of virtue and knowledge] that comes back to you—and more [besides] will be given to you who hear. (Mark 4.24)

Gods grace is enough. Go after understanding. Instead of trusting in yourself and fretting about things you cannot control give them to God. Trust Him. His Word IS true. He won’t let you down. Draw close to Him because when you do, the Bible says He will draw close to you (James 4.8) The Bible also says the blessing of the Lord is sure. He adds no sorrow to it (Pro 10.22). The Lord is your strong tower. The righteous run to Him and are safe.. (Pro 18.10)

The promises of God are true. Get ahold of them. Cling to them, rest in them. Run after the Lord more then anything or anyone else. Because He is mighty to save.

I continue to go after what Christ died to give me. I am confident that this truth is manifesting in my life. Because, ‘By the stripes Jesus bore on His back 2,000 years ago I am healed and made whole’ ( Is 53.5) And I speak those things that are not, as though they were (Rom 4.16) God is not a man that He should lie… (Num 23.19) So take Him at His Word.

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How well do you think you’re senses function? Good, somewhat or not at all? In the physical realm how well do you hear, taste, see and smell? How do these senses help you to function better in the world around you?

What about in the Spiritual realm? Are you a student of the Word of God? If so, have you ever reached a point where you feel as if nothing challenges you like it once did? Maybe you can’t connect in a Bible study at church or even have a hard time functioning within the services in a Church body because something’s missing?

We have a tendency to either account for this lack by blaming ourselves, or the church, or we ignore the feeling all together. We read more Bible, pick it apart seeking more knowledge of God in it, pray more, listen to more good music, serve in more ministries all for trying to fill that void. Or we just keep doing what we’ve always done and blame it on our broken world and go on as if nothing will ever charge.

But what IF there were something we could do to experience God on a deeper level? Would we avoid it because we’re afraid of it? Or its beyond the church doctrine we’ve always known to be true or it’s even because our Spiritual senses are dulled down that we aren’t truly seeking change; new revelation to more of the unknown spiritual workings of the Holy Spirit?

I mean really what would make God GOD if He didn’t have secrets that many miss or that take revelation from Him to experience? Isaiah 55 says, His ways are higher then our ways and also His thoughts far beyond our understanding. What if those ways are available to us when our hearts are seasoned just right to receive? Would He unveil those hidden truths to only the hungry, those seeking truly after Him?

What I experienced early in 2018 was mind blowing. It was FAR beyond incredible. Like nothing I could’ve ever seen coming. It actually brought clarity to what I had experienced with the Lord over all these years and just didn’t even realize. The Holy Spirit brought back to my mind the first instance this happened to me in a vision, many years earlier. It was then I realized these blips that would flash into my mind over the years of that instance of which could never figure out where they were from. Along with blips of instances He tried to teach me how to function in my Spiritual gifts but I resisted because I didnt understand . And it all made sense as to how I wrote the book I did:

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Not by my might or my power but by the Spirit, says the Lord (Zech 4.6). A combination of not being a part of a church that taught this part of faith stunted my understanding as well as my lack of going after more understanding of what I experienced.

In 2018 I listened to those around me share of also experiencing these and greater things and it built me up. I am a student of the Word of God and have been for quite a few years now. But after my eyes were opened to this picture of God and how truly BIG He is, I have to admit I had been knocked down to where I belonged. How much can we really understand when we think we know it all?

My Spiritual eyes are still being opened even now. I don’t understand it. These Kingdom truths I can’t get my arms around but for some reason that’s ok. I have read verses in the Bible and seen for myself that this stuff is real. It’s called the baptism of the Holy Spirit which ushers in the filling of the Holy Spirit (John 1.33). This is different then receiving the Holy Spirit when you are saved. And a good portion of our churches don’t talk about this. They dismiss it and say it’s a part of a dispensation that is long gone. But I’m afraid our churches lack of teaching and embracing it has caused us, the family of God, to be stunted in our growth.

We need to search for truth. If we are going to be overcomers in this world we need a strength stronger then ourselves or even temporarily operating in the Holy Spirits’ power. We need a power that is available to us when we feed our Spiritual lives over our physical lives. When we nuture our Spiritual senses we can hear the Holy Spirit and be obedient, we are rewarded to experience God at greater depths (Heb 11.6).

As I continue to search I amazed by words such as POWER and AUTHORITY and really what they mean. And that we really do have them available for our use once we are baptized in the Holy Spirit.

If you feel dry in your walk with God let me encourage you to start seeking after more of God (Luke 11.9-13). Ask God to teach you more. Ask God to help you put things in order in your mind and heart so that you’re ready to receive open heartedly with child-like faith the truths that He will unleash. Your mind will be blown. It may take awhile to digest these truths but once they take hold in your heart MAN nothing can hold you back. It will unleash what the Greek Word in the Bible says over and over Jesus Himself had, exousia which means power, authority, right, freedom, and strength.

Tuesday night in January of 2018 I went to a meeting for a ministry I served in for the freedom service at my church and the room was packed. The Pastor that counselled people in the church was in the room to answer any questions the leaders of the groups had in regards to the people at their tables. I began sensing God wanted me to ask how we could invite the Spirit to be apart of this ministry. I had an ongoing conversation in my inner man about how this question might take place. I told the Holy Spirit that He had to speak through me, and that I was depending upon Him to do just that.

Ephesians 5:18 came to my mind Be not drunk with wine but be filled with the Holy Spirit. After a few questions and comments were made I raised my hand, opened my mouth and what came out I do not recall exactly. I just remember sensing the Holy Spirit breathing out of me the words that I spoke. The best way I can describe the feeling was it was sweet like music that came from my mouth. I could feel the Holy Spirit pounding in my chest so hard it was beating fast like my heart beat, except it was elsewhere in my chest. He was beating so hard I thought He was jumping into the air. And that if you were looking at me you’d see that.

When I spoke it was words of wisdom and knowledge that only God Himself could pour out of me. I said that ministry needed the Spirit of God to pour out on it. Speaking forth that we have the power if filled by the Holy Spirit to raise up people, heal the sinner, and break bondage’s. I also said we should not have to see these people die. They can be freed. After I spoke, it was agreed about very casually by the Pastor running the meeting and virtually dismissed. They missed God and didn’t even know it. I did however sense that one person could see God as I spoke. He looked at me differently then everyone else. That was Pastor who counselled.

One guy came up to me afterwords and said he totally agreed. He said he wasn’t sure about speaking in tongues but I objected and said that was a relevant gifting of the Holy Spirit. I told him I had been refilled just a couple of weeks earlier. Gave him a side hug, asked for his name. My prayer to God was for Him to please do something. Something that can only be explained by Him.

The following Saturday night service I was given another opportunity to sing in the worship band at church. This was the second or third time actually with a microphone and ears in to hear with. I went in prior to this feeling like I was missing the secret presence of God that I’d obtained at that Tuesday night meeting earlier in the week. And I really couldn’t figure out why. But I was prayed up before I went to practice. After practice however, I felt as if I had been snubbed by one or two people in the band. Whether or not I was or it just my inability I could feel, I do not know. But I felt compelled after practice to go by myself and get on one knee and ask God, the Holy Spirit, for help.

We got back on stage for the worship service and I began to sing with the band. Really I didn’t feel prepared and I again asked the Holy Spirit to help me worship. Well He did. Right in the middle of one of the songs the Pastor jumps out on stage and began to talk. The ear piece to hear everything the band was doing was in my better ear. It had been hard to get it in so I didn’t take it out. With my weaker ear I tried my hardest to listen to what he spoke. I’d also felt like God had told me to leave the ear piece in.

I heard, ‘there was a girl who made some bad choices… one day she was driving in a car and came to an intersection where she couldn’t see. She went and a semi truck hit her car and pushed it. (This was when I covered my face turned to the side and started weeping). This girl was injured. She couldn’t walk, or talk. She had to relearn everything. Then he pointed to me. Well now here she is singing.’ Thats a shortened version of what he said but about only what I heard.

The applause came and the only thing I thought to do was lift my arm up and point upwards. To make it clear that ALL GLORY AND PRAISE BE TO GOD.

What God said in my spirit was ‘keep doing this for ME’.

I can’t understand the Holy Spirit. He is SUPERNATURAL in His workings . But by faith I can accept what I do understand. That is this: I receive POWER by faith; asking for help that is beyond me. I now have dwelling in me a SUPERNATURAL power that is beyond my comprehension. I have to receive it by faith.

Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God that in due time He may lift you up (1 Peter 5:6).

I am waiting. God is not through with my story. I am waiting for HIM to do something through me that is only explained by HIS POWER. That’s the answer. I can’t understand it but I just believe so that I can receive. Be available to Him.

I’m glad to hear the Holy Spirit isn’t something I deserved and that’s why I got Him because I would’ve totally missed out on recieving Him. Instead, He’s a gift that I cannot lose.

We have not received the Spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God, that we may understand what God has freely given us. This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing Spiritual truths in Spiritual words (1 Cor 2.12-13).

Sometimes it takes a crisis in our lives to make us see we are not traveling the right road, inwardly. For a good majority of the time over this last season in my life my spirit has been dry. I have been asking God to fill me up, allow me to sense Him, and when I’m in the right atmosphere to do so, I do. But since these unexpected happenings have taken place in my life over the last week and I am at peace because I know God will work these things out.

This morning I had an opportunity to go with my sister to pray over someone who has very sick. I did not know until we got there what exactly she had been dealing with but she definitely needed prayer for healing. I am aware now of how I can pray for her. I am expecting God to touch her and rise her up and show those around her that she serves a Living God.

When those unexpected events pop up into our lives we must see the spiritual war behind it. This is something I learned very early on in my faith but have indeed lost track of as I’ve grown older. Truly, what Satan throws at us to trip us up we must view it from God’s perspective. There is always something going on in the background. We have to fight the battles thrown at us in the right way in order to conquer them and bring God glory. Because truly that is the reason for this life. To show people God. If we come at our battles the same way the world does how will they ever see a Living God among us?  If we are the hands and feet of Christ we are not to be laid down maimed by our circumstances. But we are to rise above them in HIS strength.  …By MY God I can scale any wall (2 Sam 22:30).

In order for anything that comes against us to be turned around and used for my good and His glory I have to look at it from God’s perspective (Rom 8:28). I have to believe that God is in control and that He does love me and He will not allow anything on me that is too much for me to handle by His grace (2 Cor 12:9). The Bible tells me that I do not have because I do not ask (Jam 4:2-3). I have to cry out to Him with a sincere heart for His grace. And that grace is enough to handle whatever life throws at me.  It will carry me through. I just have to lean into God for enough of it.

[For I always pray to] the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, that He may grant you a spirit of wisdom and revelation [of insight into mysteries and secrets] in the [deep and intimate] knowledge of Him, By having the eyes of your heart flooded with light, so that you can know and understand the hope to which He has called you, and how rich is His glorious inheritance in the saints (His set-apart ones), And [so that you can know and understand] what is the immeasurable and unlimited and surpassing greatness of His power in and for us who believe, as demonstrated in the working of His mighty strength… (Eph 1:18-20)

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There is a freedom in not having it all figured out; in searching. There’s a freedom in not trying to belong. But finding all you need in Jesus Christ. Relying upon His strength in the midst of whatever life throws at you. Knowing that you are complete in Him.

Sometimes I will admit that my relationship with God can seem like an uphill battle; against my heart. In a wider sense, I think we as believers can be fooled into thinking because sometimes we’re responsive to the Holy Spirit promptings that we have it all together. The Bible states in Psalms 139, Though the Lord is high yet He has respect to the lowly. But the proud and haughty God knows only from a distance. That means that He still is around the proud but not nearly as close to them as when their hearts are soft and in their heart of hearts they truly know their need for God. To lay it out, I’ve been battling a proud heart and trying to break it up myself. I can’t do that myself. It’s a Spiritual battle that can only be won by Gods strength. I have to humble myself, repent and ask God to change my heart. Make me responsive to His Spirit. Help me to come back to my first love. Thankfully, He is restoring my heart to a right place.

Our strength ought to rest in the fact that in Jesus is everything we will ever need from this life to the next. Healing, either in the physical, mental or emotional capacity is available if only we take the Word as a medicine everyday and believe that it is enough. The Bible is the perfect Word of God. No imperfections in it. No half truths. No lies. Nothing false. Nothing that is not applicable in some sense or another today. That’s because it is the Spirit of God. And God has not changed. Plain and simple.. There is no truth apart from God’s Spirit that can change anyone or any thing.

God is three in one; God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. I remember when I really realized that the Word of God is Jesus. It was mind blowing. Jesus is the Bread of Life. I was teaching a women’s Bible study that I was writing myself. Listening to the Spirit of God give me lessons every week. When I tried to teach this truth to those ladies I’m not really sure that they truly understood it and it could’ve been because I didn’t truly understand enough to allow the Spirit to flow through me and teach them. As a matter of fact, I need reminding myself of this truth daily. Because it seems that once you get a hold of that truth in your heart and understand that, “where the Spirit of Lord is there is freedom,” you will never be the same. And yet everyday we still need reminding.

It means that when I read the Word of God it’s a declaration of Life to me, and because it’s Spirit, it’s everything I’ll ever need. The Kingdom of Heaven is righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit (Romans 14:17). John 1:1 says, In the beginning was the Word, the Word was with God, the Word was God… Jesus said, I am the Bread of Life (John 6:35). I need to eat of this bread daily to be satisfied. My heart needs to be soft in order to digest what I read. Put simply, eat the bread, internalize the truth and see it produce Life in my life by the Spirit; in my body, in my heart that I cannot take credit for. And then God gets the glory for the great things He has done in me, period.

This led Him to say, What is the kingdom of God like? And to what shall I compare it? It is like a grain of mustard seed, which a man took and planted in his own garden; and it grew and became a tree, and the wild birds found shelter and roosted and nested in its branches. And again He said, To what shall I liken the Kingdom of God? It is like leaven which a woman took and his in three measures of wheat flour or meal until it was leavened (fermented) (Luke 13:18-21).

Jesus spoke in parables when teaching what the Kingdom of God was like. He said that it would appear small from the onlooker and hidden yet with the person searching for it in faith it would yield a harvest unimaginable. Faith is the key component to make something appear clear that is not obvious to the senses (Heb 11:1). Faith comes when we set aside our intellect and become like a child. A child just believes. They don’t understand.

A mustard seed does not stay in the planters hand and grow to become big beautiful tree. The seed is cast or thrown out into soil, where it grows to be a large tree. Once grown, the birds can perch on it and find safety and make their homes in it. Also, leaven is a key in baking bread that rises. Without it being mixed thoroughly into the dough the bread bakes flat.

Likewise, when we compare the kingdom of God to these things it’s apparent that our faith by itself doesn’t do really do much of anything except reside. But if we combine our faith with the power bestowed upon those who house the Kingdom of God within them we can move mountains. Leave legacies that lift God up and promote His purposes.

The word kingdom in basically all of the Gospels means the same thing. In the Greek kingdom is basileia. This word speaks of the authority we as believers have because of what Christ died to give us. In fact, Luke 17:21 says that the same kingdom of God lives within the believer. Strong’s concordance agrees with this conclusion and states that the Kingdom of God is said to be where the King is. Where His rule is acknowledged. First in the heart of the individual believer and then in the churches (Acts 4:19, Eph 3:17, 1 Pet 3:15, 1 Cor 12:3,5,11; 14:37).

When we let that authority become something we can understand and mix into our growing faith, we can use it for God’s glory to shine doing His work just as Jesus said we would. Then people will come flocking to find God because the unexplainable will happen right before their very eyes; miracles such as healing sickness, opening blind eyes, raising the dead as well as seeing people delivered from the chains Satan has them shackled to. There will be righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit (Rom 14:17). (A side note: the Kingdom of Heaven is always the Kingdom of God but the Kingdom of God is not limited to the perimeters of the Kingdom of Heaven. Strong’s concordance)

Only in the New Testament is the word basileia found referring to the kingdom. In the Old Testament there are a few different words used in place of the kingdom but they never have to do with the authority Christ died to give us. It only refers to God’s power and the authority that He has. In the Strong’s Concordance of the Bible it says that because we live in a fallen world the Kingdom of God in the Greek is the sphere in which at any given time His rule is acknowledged.

Why shouldn’t we search out these hidden things so we can see the power of God working in and through us everyday? Our fear holds us back, or regret for not knowing these truths when we had loved ones sick and dying and we could do nothing because of our lack of understanding or belief in receiving more. Maybe we’re old in our faith yet we’ve never learned these miraculous truths.

Take a step of faith and fight to grow in your faith. Never become satisfied with what you know about God. That’s when complacency sets in and we are mediocre in our relationship. Strive to know more of God. Those mysteries and secrets He unveils only to those who search with their whole heart (Luke 11).

“…evaluate your own selves to see whether you are holding to your faith & showing the proper fruits of it. Test & prove yourselves [not Christ]. Do you not yourselves realize & know [thoroughly by an ever-increasing experience] that Jesus Christ is in you…” (2Cor 13:5)

“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Cor 12:9)

As the Apostle Paul wrote truths in 2 Cor 12:9 he proclaimed that in his weakness God’s strength is stronger. He recited over and over that God told him when facing any kind of lack His favor would be enough. Because His Power was supernatural. It was beyond Paul’s understanding. It was enough to move Paul along in his journey. It was enough to keep Paul pushing forward to bigger and better things.

In the same way, that ‘dynamis‘ strength is not given to us to camp in our misery and claim His grace is enough to help us deal. It’s offering to give us divine help in our time of need. So that teleioō’ can bring to completion in our lives whatever’s bogging us down; we can stand over it and say God’s grace is enough. That will be a testimony to whoever’s watching that we serve a real God.

How’s your faith serving you? Are you standing over the storms of life or are they terrorizing your home, your mental, physical, or emotional health? Are you watching people around you overcome as you find yourself stuck? Are you producing uplifting fruits because of your faith or because of your lack producing bad fruits. They will be poisonous to your health. The Word says we are to try our faith to determine if it’s of genuine quality.

Asking God to help us is key. Grace, grace, grace. Reach for it. It’s that enabling power to get up, pickup our mats and walk.

“Keep your loins girded and your lamps burning,” (Luke 12:35). In order for the fire of Jesus to really keep burning brightly in our hearts we have to wrap the truth around us. Anything that comes against us to dim that light has to be cut down with the Sword of the Spirit. We have to understand how big God is and cling to Him. “The Angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him [who revere and worship Him with awe] and each of them He delivers.“ (Ps 34:7). “Buy the truth and sell it not; not only that, but also get discernment and judgment, instruction and understanding.” (Pro 23:23) Our very lives depend upon us staying in truth.