Late last year in 2018 I was walking in faith, with a word I believed I received from God. That was to pick up my mat and walk. After pressing into God I stopped taking a medication that the doctors used on me to treat seizures for 17 years. Then this year I had an incident in the car that was unexpected.

I was driving the car on my way somewhere when I lost consciousness. Instead of hitting oncoming traffic or running into something, I pulled into a parking lot, got out of my car, laid down on the curb and had a seizure. The only explanation for this grace is that I had angels surrounding me that orchestrated this. That morning I recall having asked the Lord to surround me with angels.

If anyone hesitates to trust God while walking in faith I think there’s a truth you need to get ahold of. God is GOD. If we’re really in an intimate relationship with Him we will hear His voice and discern truth in our lives from what is false. We will know what to pray for and be prepared when the enemy comes at us. The Bible says,

…Be careful what you are hearing. The measure [of thought and study] you give [to the truth you hear] will be the measure [of virtue and knowledge] that comes back to you—and more [besides] will be given to you who hear. (Mark 4.24)

Gods grace is enough. Go after understanding. Instead of trusting in yourself and fretting about things you cannot control give them to God. Trust Him. His Word IS true. He won’t let you down. Draw close to Him because when you do the Bible says He will draw close to you (James 4.8) The Bible also says the blessing of the Lord is sure. He adds no sorrow to it (Pro 10.22). The Lord is your strong tower. The righteous run to Him and are safe. (Pro 18.10)

The promises of God are true. Get ahold of them. Cling to them, rest in them. Run after the Lord more then anything or anyone else. Because He is mighty to save.

I continue to go after what Christ died to give me. I am confident that this truth is manifesting in my life. Because, ‘By the stripes Jesus bore on His back 2,000 years ago I am healed and made whole’ ( Is 53.5) And I speak those things that are not, as though they were (Rom 4.16) God is not a man that He should lie… (Num 23.19) So take Him at His Word.

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…we need to stop and consider why we call God GOD? If God is GOD should He not do signs and wonders that are mind blowing? Do things that we can’t possibly explain? If so shouldn’t we see more of this everyday? These last few years have been mind blowing to me as I’m learning about these truly glorious facets of God that only express themselves when a person is really searching. I feel like I’ve been blown away. All these years after a bit of Bible College and a lot of Bible study I feel like I’ve just scratched the surface. I think sometimes we have simplified the Bible enough to take the wonder right out of it.

I have been baptized with the Holy Spirit many times and when I am I have felt a warmth on my body. One instance I remember the lower portion of my back being warm. This instance I was not sure what had happened. God revealed that He had healed my hips.
Tuesday night of that following week we had a meeting before a service I served in for table leaders to ask the church counselor if we had any questions. The first question had to do with helping a table get past losing someone to death because of substance abuse. Others offered answers and the counselor did too. I felt the Holy Spirit wanted me to interject by mentioning our need to bring Him into this ministry. I told the Holy Spirit that He needed to speak thru me. I put my faith Him. Well when I opened my mouth I could literally feel the Spirit jumping in my chest. It was like He was jumping out of my chest. If you were sitting in front of me you would’ve seen Him patruding out of my chest. The power that came out of my mouth was unexplainable. It was beautiful like music. It was like God was breathing out of my mouth HIS words. I said, “We have no need to watch these people die. If we are filled w the Holy Spirit we have power; to caste demons out, raise the dead etc..”
Everyone in the room had their eyes fixated on me. The room was extra filled that night because a text had gone out to every leader that the counselor would be there to answer questions. They all were intently listening but I was afraid most of them missed what God saying through me. Except the counselor. I noticed he was watching and by the look on his face I sensed he saw something different. I don’t know because we never spoke afterwards but I had hoped. A guy approached me after and said he’d agreed with everything I’d said. We needed to be filled w the Holy Spirit to do that ministry.

A Saturday night service a week later I was given another opportunity to sing in the worship band at church. This was the second time I had actually had a microphone and ears to hear with. I went in prior to this feeling like I was missing the secret presence of God that I’d obtained at that Tuesday night meeting earlier in the week. And I really couldn’t figure out why. But I was prayed up before I went to practice. After practice I felt as if I had been snubbed by one or two people in the band. Whether or not I was or if it was just my inability I could feel I do not know. But I felt compelled to go by myself after practice and get on one knee and ask God, the Holy Spirit, for help.
We got back on stage for the worship service and I began to sing with the band. Really I didn’t feel prepared and I’d asked the Holy Spirit to help me worship. Well He did. Right in the middle of one of the songs the Pastor jumped out on stage and began to talk. The ear piece to hear everything the band was doing was in my better ear. It had been hard to get it in so I wasn’t taking it out. With my weaker ear I tried my hardest to listen to what the Pastor spoke. I’d felt like God told me to leave the ear piece in. I heard, ‘there was a girl who made some bad choices… one day she was driving in a car and came to an intersection where she couldn’t see. She went and a semi hit her car and pushed the car so far (This was when I covered my face turned it to the side and started weeping). This girl was injured. She couldn’t walk, or talk. She had to relearn everything. And he pointed to me. Well now here she is singing.’ Thats a shortened version of what he said but about only what I heard.
The applause came and the only thing I thought to do was lift my arm up and point up. To make it clear that ALL GLORY AND PRAISE BE TO GOD. That was when God said in my spirit keep doing this for ME.

I can’t understand the Holy Spirit. He is SUPERNATURAL in His workings . But by faith I can accept what I do understand. That is this: I receive POWER by faith. Asking for help that is beyond me. I now have dwelling in me a SUPERNATURAL power that is beyond my comprehension. I have to receive it by faith.
I am waiting. God is not through with my story. I am waiting for HIM to do something through me that is only explained by HIS POWER. That’s the answer. I can’t understand but I have to just believe so that I can receive. Be available.

I had a conversation with my grandpa the day I wrote this blog. At the end of our call he said it was his belief that being baptized in the Holy Spirit meant our understanding of God is opened. We see Him as He is. Impossible to understand. Beyond our infinite minds comprehension level. And It’s our FAITH that fuels HIM to do the impossible. I have seen Him come through in my life so many times and it’s only when I just put my faith in HIM.
We have prayed over our cars. We have prayed over Mike’s foot. We have prayed about lost jobs. I prayed and prayed and prayed to write my book. It wasn’t me. I cannot boast. Things that are out of our control. Just putting our faith in God has done those impossible things.
Learn about it. Put out your faith and see what happens. Deeper revelation of WHO GOD IS and what HE wants to reveal to those who are searching.
I spent a few hours at my moms house the day before I wrote this. Mike dropped me off so he could meet with a friend. It was snowy out so he had the truck to use. I’d prayed that God would help me to speak. That afternoon was one of the sweetest days of conversation I had ever had with mom and Keith. I shared with them my experience since being baptized in the Holy Spirit again and the heart revelation that God gave me. As I spoke I could feel it was the power of the Holy Spirit speaking though me. My mom and Keith also said they sensed that as well. I think Keith received what I said. After I finished sharing my revelation Keith spoke up and said well I think you could write another book on Just what you shared.
The next night Mike and I had dinner out. I shared with him about the Holy Spirit revelation given to me. After I finished he also said I could write a second book on what I’d just shared with him. I certainly don’t know but God is leading me. That night I prayed for Mike to receive the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. Twice. I felt led to when we got upstairs to our bedroom to pray again. I felt it was a more sincere prayer.

Last night I began thinking that maybe this revelation is something I need to pass onto our pastor. Figured I’d pray and wait.
This morning I was thinking this again. This morning talking to Mike on the phone he said he read Mark 13 and says we need to read it together.
Verse 11 says don’t worry about what you’ll say . Just go. It struck me as I read aloud to Mike. When I got to the end of the passage we talked about it and I spoke of another verse that spoke to me. Not mentioning the one about v11. I prayed silently that if this was Him speaking that He would tell me again. As soon as I was done silently praying that Mike spoke up and said what about verse 11? I’m like, ok God. Ok . Man.
So at 6:40 am Sunday morning I texted my pastor about setting a meeting up. He says no problem he’ll let his assistant know today to arrange it.
God is gonna speak for me, through me and I hope HE chooses to make something happen in our pastor. I pray his heart has been primed by the conversation he’s had with my sister Sarah.

Republished and shared. Originally written in 2018.

I have been thinking randomly about in my past doing Bible school through Moody Bible Institute. And God is so good to help me remember things from that at the right time. God started a great work in me prior to that schooling through the Experiencing God Bible study but revelation knowledge came to me when I learned about John 1:1. “In the beginning was the Word. The word was with God and the Word was God.” That changed my whole life. That taught me that what I was reading in the Bible was more than just words on a page. It is God Himself that is spoken into existence; into my circumstances when spoken outloud in faith. Believer meditate upon that. Turn your affection and attention to the Word in your life and see the storm dissipate.

Not matter what you may have done in your past it doesn’t disqualify you from a better future. 

You know for many years I lived with the thought internally that what I dealt with externally was caused from a series of bad decisions I made years ago and there was nothing I could do to change the effects of that.       

BUT GOD

God is not a liar. When He said that the curse of my sin and wrongdoing and also the sickness caused by it was brought upon Himself, He meant it; when it was written and it is still applicable today (Gal 3:13, Is 53). I don’t have to live under anything.

When God gets a hold of my heart and renews my mind my whole being is changed. I live under the blessing of Abraham as a child of God Most High through my faith (Gal 3:14).

Christ paid the debt and when He said, “It is finished” that’s what He meant (John 19:30). Christ satisfied God’s justice by dying for all to pay for the sins of the elect. These sins can never be punished again since that would violate God’s justice. Sins can only be punished once, either by a substitute or by yourself (blueletterbible.org).

You and I need to live as if that was true so we can be all God created us to be. This applies to Every PERSON who chooses to accept this. It’s free for all.

The last two years or so have been challenging for us as a family. Although this is true there are very few people in my life that I trust with any details about it so that I’m not giving the enemy more power in my life. I can tell you though the things we’ve been through even though they were tough for us it taught us both more about the Authority of God in us and how to function in it than any other times in our entire lives.

I personally have learned so much about the power of my words. That’s not to say I don’t make mistakes in conversation but I really try to be more aware of what I am saying and instead of expressing things negatively I either stay quiet or reword things in a positive aspect so as to not bring more spiritual warfare on myself than I ought to.

The power of life and death are in the tongue and those who love it will eat its fruit.

I have really been learning for many years now to incorporate speaking forth God’s Word into my life by faith and even more especially while in dire circumstances. I and my husband have seen God do the impossible over and over again in my body and his body; physically, emotionally and spiritually. Not just changing our circumstances but changing us and making both my husband and I stronger in our faith together, teaching us important lessons to be passed along to others.

God’s Word says He takes all things and turns them around for our good and His glory. It can be amazing to look back and reflect at what has happened but see the glory of God in it. What was meant for our harm turned out for our benefit and strengthening.

We just have to know and expect that God’s Word has the power to project that glory into our lives. Sometimes it’s hanging on in faith while going through circumstances to see our faith move those mountains.

Just a word of encouragement keep your faith. God is FAITHFUL and you will make it through if you believe that in faith. Speaking forth the Word is your weapon of warfare to use and reaching to grow in your understanding. The Bible says in Proverbs that we are to cry out for understanding and wisdom. That’s no small task. That requires time and energy pursuing God and expecting Him to fulfill His Word. Otherwise it’s just religious. What’s the purpose of pursuing God if not for His amazing grace?

There is now no condemnation for Those who are in Christ Jesus.

No matter where you are or where you’ve been as long as you’re still breathing there’s time to see change in your life for the positive. Don’t settle to live in circumstances that limit your abilities. Push through those hard times with an attitude that says you’re not giving up. Do the impossible.

Fix your eyes on Jesus.

Your life is more than being about you. God has good plans for you to project Him to a lost and dying world.

Go after the Lord with all your heart. As if nothing else will change your circumstances except Him and see what happens.

For some reason I have the need to share this this morning. Someone needs this who understands Spiritual Warfare. I got this prayer from my Grandparents many years ago and since then prayed in nearly everyday outloud in faith. Not to say I haven’t gone through things but they could have been so much worse had I not been prepared Spiritually.

EPH 6:10-18 THE WARFARE PRAYER BY KENNY ASHLEY written after Jeff Floyd’s Ministry Laying Aside Every Weight

I AM STRONG IN YOU LORD AND IN THE POWER OF YOUR MIGHT. I PUT ON THE FULL ARMOR OF GOD AND STAND AGAINST THE PLANS OF THE DEVIL. IN THE NAME OF THE LORD JESUS I BIND SATAN AND THE PRINCIPALITIES, THE POWERS, THE RULERS OF THE DARKNESS OF THIS WORLD. I BIND AND CAST DOWN SPIRITUAL WICKEDNESS IN HIGH PLACES AND RENDER THEM HARMLESS AND INEFFCTIVE AGAINST ME AND MY LOVED ONES… I RESIST YOU DEVIL IN THE NAME OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST AND I STAND MY GROUND. I HAVE THE BELT OF TRUTH BUCKELED AROUND MY WAIST. THE TRUTH OF GOD SETS ME FREE. I HAVE ON THE BREAST PLATE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS THAT COVERS MY BODY, MY HEART AND MY VITAL ORGANS AND SHOWS ME I’M IN A RIGHT-STANDING WITH MY GOD. MY FEET ARE SHOD WITH THE PREPARATION OF THE GOSPEL OF PEACE, AND I TAKE THOSE FEET AND TREAD ON SERPENTS AND SCORPIONS FOR I HAVE BEEN GIVEN AUTHORITY OVER ALL YOUR POWER… I TAKE THE HELMET OF SALVATION AND COVER MY HEAD SECURELY FOR I HAVE THE MIND OF GOD, THE ONLY SPIRIT I WILL FOLLOW IS THE SPIRIT OF THE LIVING GOD WHO LIVES INSIDE ME AND SPEAKS TO ME FROM WITH-IN. I TAKE THE SHIELD OF FAITH AND QUENCH EVERY ARROW YOU THROW AT ME SATAN… I TAKE THE SWORD OF THE SPIRIT WHICH IS THE WORD OF GOD AND PIERCE THROUGH YOUR WICKED PLANS… FOR IT IS WRITTEN THAT ALL I HAVE TO DO IS SUBMIT MYSELF TO GOD AND TELL YOU TO FLEE AND YOU HAVE TO GO… NOW GO SATAN IN THE NAME OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST… I PLACE THE BLOOD OF JESUS OVER ME, MY FAMILY, MY HOME, MY MINISTRY, MY FRIENDS, MY CHURCH, MY PASTOR AND FAMILY, MY PLACE OF EMPLOYMENT, MY BANK ACCOUNTS, MY CAR, MY POSSESSIONS, ALL OF WHICH BELONG TO GOD. AND I SERVE NOTICE THAT YOUR POWER IS BROKEN SATAN OVER ME AND MINE IN JESUS NAME… THANK YOU FATHER… SEND PEOPLE MY WAY TO MINISTER TO TODAY.

Believers you can’t be fully dependent on what you’re learning at church or how you’re serving to be the means you measure your relationship with God. If you only go as far as what the pastor, or your teachers share you’ll never get to deeper places with God. You have to go after God. Go after teachings that are beyond what you know. So you can grow and be that conquerer through Christ who gives you strength. Keep looking and yearning and grasping for MORE bc THERE IS MORE

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