I am glad that no one pitied me when I was lagging behind because of my lifestyle choices. More than twenty years ago as my brain healing occurred over a period of years, with lots of tears and angst, I was pushed by family to keep going. No one in my circle felt sorry for me but they just kept pushing me to keep moving forward. It was not easy. NO, IT WAS NOT.

Even after that time when my brain would lapse in memory, I’d experience fogginess that I couldn’t escape. I did have seizures at different times both day and night for many years but I was encouraged to keep pushing forward.

When I was sick of being sick the Holy Spirit gave me revelation knowledge of what rightfully belonged to me, despite my previously bad decisions that led me to where I was. He said in John 19:30, the debt was paid in full. He helped me to see that God is a restorer of the breach (Is 58:12). And that it was His will to heal me (Is 53). That He does not steal, kill or destroy but gives life and life abundantly (John 10:10).

I certainly don’t know what my life would look like today had I not come to understand what is mine in the Spiritual realm through Christ Jesus. The enemy tried to squash me way too many times; physically, mentally, emotionally and Spiritually. I experienced near-death experiences in my waking after seizures, or after taking bad seizure medication that my Doctor prescribed. God always spared my life and helped me to pull through as I knew there was still more for me to accomplish here on earth with His help. And pushing through with the help of the Holy Spirit I got up in faith and pressed through. Using God’s Word I strengthened myself mentally, physically, emotionally and most importantly Spiritually. I became the new creation He was crafting me to be.

I know who I’m not in my strength but I also know who I am in Christ. His strength is made perfect in my weakness and His grace sufficient for each day (2Cor 12:9). His mercies are new every morning and He is FAITHFUL to the end; His love is unending, and immeasurable (Lam 3:22-24, Eph 3:19).