…we need to stop and consider why we call God GOD? If God is GOD should He not do signs and wonders that are mind blowing? Do things that we can’t possibly explain? If so shouldn’t we see more of this everyday? These last few years have been mind blowing to me as I’m learning about these truly glorious facets of God that only express themselves when a person is really searching. I feel like I’ve been blown away. All these years after a bit of Bible College and a lot of Bible study I feel like I’ve just scratched the surface. I think sometimes we have simplified the Bible enough to take the wonder right out of it.

I have been baptized with the Holy Spirit many times and when I am I have felt a warmth on my body. One instance I remember the lower portion of my back being warm. This instance I was not sure what had happened. God revealed that He had healed my hips.
Tuesday night of that following week we had a meeting before a service I served in for table leaders to ask the church counselor if we had any questions. The first question had to do with helping a table get past losing someone to death because of substance abuse. Others offered answers and the counselor did too. I felt the Holy Spirit wanted me to interject by mentioning our need to bring Him into this ministry. I told the Holy Spirit that He needed to speak thru me. I put my faith Him. Well when I opened my mouth I could literally feel the Spirit jumping in my chest. It was like He was jumping out of my chest. If you were sitting in front of me you would’ve seen Him patruding out of my chest. The power that came out of my mouth was unexplainable. It was beautiful like music. It was like God was breathing out of my mouth HIS words. I said, “We have no need to watch these people die. If we are filled w the Holy Spirit we have power; to caste demons out, raise the dead etc..”
Everyone in the room had their eyes fixated on me. The room was extra filled that night because a text had gone out to every leader that the counselor would be there to answer questions. They all were intently listening but I was afraid most of them missed what God saying through me. Except the counselor. I noticed he was watching and by the look on his face I sensed he saw something different. I don’t know because we never spoke afterwards but I had hoped. A guy approached me after and said he’d agreed with everything I’d said. We needed to be filled w the Holy Spirit to do that ministry.

A Saturday night service a week later I was given another opportunity to sing in the worship band at church. This was the second time I had actually had a microphone and ears to hear with. I went in prior to this feeling like I was missing the secret presence of God that I’d obtained at that Tuesday night meeting earlier in the week. And I really couldn’t figure out why. But I was prayed up before I went to practice. After practice I felt as if I had been snubbed by one or two people in the band. Whether or not I was or if it was just my inability I could feel I do not know. But I felt compelled to go by myself after practice and get on one knee and ask God, the Holy Spirit, for help.
We got back on stage for the worship service and I began to sing with the band. Really I didn’t feel prepared and I’d asked the Holy Spirit to help me worship. Well He did. Right in the middle of one of the songs the Pastor jumped out on stage and began to talk. The ear piece to hear everything the band was doing was in my better ear. It had been hard to get it in so I wasn’t taking it out. With my weaker ear I tried my hardest to listen to what the Pastor spoke. I’d felt like God told me to leave the ear piece in. I heard, ‘there was a girl who made some bad choices… one day she was driving in a car and came to an intersection where she couldn’t see. She went and a semi hit her car and pushed the car so far (This was when I covered my face turned it to the side and started weeping). This girl was injured. She couldn’t walk, or talk. She had to relearn everything. And he pointed to me. Well now here she is singing.’ Thats a shortened version of what he said but about only what I heard.
The applause came and the only thing I thought to do was lift my arm up and point up. To make it clear that ALL GLORY AND PRAISE BE TO GOD. That was when God said in my spirit keep doing this for ME.

I can’t understand the Holy Spirit. He is SUPERNATURAL in His workings . But by faith I can accept what I do understand. That is this: I receive POWER by faith. Asking for help that is beyond me. I now have dwelling in me a SUPERNATURAL power that is beyond my comprehension. I have to receive it by faith.
I am waiting. God is not through with my story. I am waiting for HIM to do something through me that is only explained by HIS POWER. That’s the answer. I can’t understand but I have to just believe so that I can receive. Be available.

I had a conversation with my grandpa the day I wrote this blog. At the end of our call he said it was his belief that being baptized in the Holy Spirit meant our understanding of God is opened. We see Him as He is. Impossible to understand. Beyond our infinite minds comprehension level. And It’s our FAITH that fuels HIM to do the impossible. I have seen Him come through in my life so many times and it’s only when I just put my faith in HIM.
We have prayed over our cars. We have prayed over Mike’s foot. We have prayed about lost jobs. I prayed and prayed and prayed to write my book. It wasn’t me. I cannot boast. Things that are out of our control. Just putting our faith in God has done those impossible things.
Learn about it. Put out your faith and see what happens. Deeper revelation of WHO GOD IS and what HE wants to reveal to those who are searching.
I spent a few hours at my moms house the day before I wrote this. Mike dropped me off so he could meet with a friend. It was snowy out so he had the truck to use. I’d prayed that God would help me to speak. That afternoon was one of the sweetest days of conversation I had ever had with mom and Keith. I shared with them my experience since being baptized in the Holy Spirit again and the heart revelation that God gave me. As I spoke I could feel it was the power of the Holy Spirit speaking though me. My mom and Keith also said they sensed that as well. I think Keith received what I said. After I finished sharing my revelation Keith spoke up and said well I think you could write another book on Just what you shared.
The next night Mike and I had dinner out. I shared with him about the Holy Spirit revelation given to me. After I finished he also said I could write a second book on what I’d just shared with him. I certainly don’t know but God is leading me. That night I prayed for Mike to receive the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. Twice. I felt led to when we got upstairs to our bedroom to pray again. I felt it was a more sincere prayer.

Last night I began thinking that maybe this revelation is something I need to pass onto our pastor. Figured I’d pray and wait.
This morning I was thinking this again. This morning talking to Mike on the phone he said he read Mark 13 and says we need to read it together.
Verse 11 says don’t worry about what you’ll say . Just go. It struck me as I read aloud to Mike. When I got to the end of the passage we talked about it and I spoke of another verse that spoke to me. Not mentioning the one about v11. I prayed silently that if this was Him speaking that He would tell me again. As soon as I was done silently praying that Mike spoke up and said what about verse 11? I’m like, ok God. Ok . Man.
So at 6:40 am Sunday morning I texted my pastor about setting a meeting up. He says no problem he’ll let his assistant know today to arrange it.
God is gonna speak for me, through me and I hope HE chooses to make something happen in our pastor. I pray his heart has been primed by the conversation he’s had with my sister Sarah.

Republished and shared. Originally written in 2018.